3.23.2009

Monday Moms!

"For parents to take a newborn infant, who is then only a bundle of potentialities, and love and guide and develop that child until a fully functional human being emerges is the grandest miracle of science, and the greatest of all arts. When the Lord created parents, he created something breathtakingly close to what he is. We who have borne children innately know that this is the highest of callings, the holiest of assignments—and that is why the slightest failure can cause us crippling despair" - Patricia Holland

Blake and I have often joked that I am omni-phobic (all fearing). I have a million little fears that I dwell on way too much - when I became a mom these fears quadroupled. I remember calling my mom after Paisley was born and through the tears asking her "Do you ever stop worrying about your kids?" She instantly said "No - you don't." and then asked me what I was worrying about. I didn't even know where to start... that someone would take her, that she would stop breathing, that she would choke, that she would have an incurable diesease, that someone would hurt her, that she would grow up to hate me, that she would make poor decisions in her life, that I would lose her... I felt like my head was going to explode with all the new fears added to it. Somewhere in our conversation, my Mom said something to the effect of "Sometimes you just have to have faith in your heart and not think too much with your head otherwise you will never sleep at night." I have to remind myself of this alot - when my head starts spinning with all the responsibilities of being a parent, I turn to my heart and know that faith in my Saviour can replace the fear.

4 comments:

busy bowman said...

I know how you feel! I listen to music or books at night not because I like them but to turn my mind off of the many things we worry about! I also Have one of those great moms like your that let me know that you can only do what you can. I took this to mean what I can live with so I know if I try my hardest to teach my children how to share, learn to read, walk and talk, study, clean up, follow the commandments,live the gospel, know that I love them, I feel better knowing that I did what I could live with which is all I could. As one of my children struggle it would be so easy to give up and say I tried but I know that I have to keep trying to the point that I know I have done what I as a mom can live with! This doesn't make it any easier at times but it does make me realize that when I make decisions I know that I have fulfilled my calling as a mom and our savior will guide us through the rest.

The Hardy Things in Life said...

Thanks for sharing that, it is so true!! But I know you that if I turn my heart to the Lord, he will be there to help and guide me along the way!! Love you!

The Thompson Family said...

Reading your blogs always inspires and uplifts me Cyndi. Love you!

The Van Fam said...

i totally know how you feel about fearing everythign for your kids. its good to know i am not the only one! i worry every day about them! but you are right, we just need to do our best and rely on the Savior.